I began reading one of the Old Testament books, Habakkuk, yesterday and the Prophet begins chapter 1 by saying, “How long, O Lord, am I to cry for help, but you will not listen?” Have you ever felt like that? I have many times. I have felt that God has turned a deaf ear to me, that God has forgotten me, or that God is mad at me and He WILL NOT listen to me. I have felt many times that prayer does not work. My friend, THAT is a lie the Enemy of our souls wants us to believe! I will confess that when I pray, I would really like an immediate answer. I want God to fix it, or provide, immediately. It would be so nice if we could get those three little dots like you do when you send a text on your iPhone and someone is texting back- at least you know you are getting a response. But more often, it is like watching the little circle spin and spin, and spin on your computer. You think the message was given to the computer correctly, but nothing is happening. I have felt as if my prayers were helium balloons, to rise up just to hit the ceiling and stay there- going no further. I remember a specific time I wanted a prayer answered was when my youngest daughter had to have ear tubes placed when she was 4. It was a period of constant ear infections, antibiotics, and hearing tests. The audiologist determined that her hearing was exactly the same as if she were under water. She eventually had three ear surgeries, and in the midst of all that I wanted God to heal her. I could recall all of the stories where Jesus healed so many people. Surely two tiny ears weren’t too hard for Him! I knew He had the power to heal, and honestly, I was angry that she was having to go through this. I felt God was withholding power and that maybe we were being punished for something. A few nights before one of her surgeries, I remember praying (in anger) and asking God “why?”. I didn’t get an answer to “why”, but I felt God whisper to my soul, “I AM bigger than her ear infections. I can handle this”.
Letting go and trusting isn’t easy for me. But I have to remember that God looks at all of eternity. We can only see the few years we are on this Earth. We aren’t always privileged to see how God works. Isaiah 55: 8-9 says, “My thoughts are not your thoughts, and my ways are not your ways,” declares the Lord. “Just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways, and my thoughts are higher than your thoughts.”. I want to reassure you that God DOES hear you! He loves you and the thing you are praying for IS important to Him. Psalm 55: 16-17 says, “But I call on God, and the Lord saves me. Morning, noon, and night I complain and groan, and He listens to my voice”. Something I have done over the years is write down my prayer requests, and then when God answers, I highlight that request and write the response, or the way God answered that request next to it. Then, when I am in seasons of not hearing from God, I go back through those old journals and I am reminded of God’s goodness and faithfulness. I’m reassured that He does indeed listen to me.
I hope this post has encouraged you and you can stand at your guard post like Habakkuk and “watch to see what he will say to me” (Habakkuk 2: 1). Draw your strength from the Creator of your soul while you wait. What are you calling out to God for that you feel He is being silent on? I would be honored to join you in prayer over it. Comment below, or go to my Contact page and send me a message. I will close with Habakkuk 3: 17-19, “Even if the fig tree does not bloom and the vines have no grapes, even if the olive tree fails to produce and the fields yield no food, even if the sheep pen is empty and the stalls have no cattle- even then, I will be happy with the Lord. I will truly find joy in God, who saves me. The Lord Almighty is my strength. He makes my feet like those of a deer. He makes me walk on the mountains.”